One day at Kabukicho #DAY145 - Endless distress and ruthless decision at times.
It's been over 15 years now, and the boundary between work and personal life has always been unclear to me as an area of interest. But the work itself is actually made up of several parts, and I have been feeling for the past few years that the parts that interest me should not necessarily be at the core of what I should be involved in.
もう15年以上になるかな、自分の中で仕事とプライベートって興味の対象としてはすごい境界線が曖昧であり続けている。ただその仕事の部分は実はいくつかのパートから成り立っていて、自分の興味の対象の部分はすでに自分がコアに関わるべきではないんだろうなーってのはここ数年感じてきていた。
I used to relieve work stress by channeling it into other tasks, but now I am reaching a point where I can no longer do that, at least just for now. I feel like if I can get through current situation, I'll be able to release stress in a different way in my work from now on.
今までって仕事のストレスがあっても、それを別の仕事で発散していたりしたんだけど、そろそろそれができない状況になってきた。たぶん今ここを乗り切ったら、今までとはまた違った意味で仕事でストレスを発散できる状態になっていくような気がするんだけど・・・。
Recently, it has become common to see people using LUUP to move around not only in Kabukicho but also in the Shinjuku area.
それにしても最近は歌舞伎町に限らず新宿界隈にいると LUUP で移動している人を普通に見かけるようになったなー。
Car sharing services are also available almost everywhere in Tokyo. However, in case of me, a car is not just a means of transportation, but also has a significance as a purpose like my interest, so I don't feel like I should just use car sharing.
カーシェアとかも都内だとどこに行ってもあるしね。ただし自分の場合は車は単なる移動手段ってだけじゃなくて、それ自体が目的のような意味合いも持っているから、車はシェアすればいいって感じにはならないんだよな。
Just by the fact that car sharing has become easily accessible anywhere, even if we usually ride in a car that is not particularly convenient for carrying luggage like mine, we can now easily rent a van from a nearby car sharing service when we need to transport something a bit bigger. It's nice that it has become so easy to do so.
ただカーシェアがどこでも手軽に利用できるようになったことで、自分みたく普段は荷物を運ぶ手段としては決して便利とは言えないような車に乗っていても、ちょっと大きな荷物を運ぶ必要がある時は近場のカーシェアでワンボックスカーを借りる、なんてことも気軽にできるようになってきたのはうれしいかも。
On this day, I was with my usual friend and we were heading towards Shin-Okubo from Kabukicho together, so this photo was taken on the way back.
この日はいつもの友達とちょっと歌舞伎町から新大久保方面に一緒に行っていたから、この撮影はその帰り道。
I said goodbye to my friend as she got in a taxi, but I had been told before that she waved from a taxi and I didn't notice, so this time I made sure to wave and see her off properly... But after the taxi started moving, she says that she looked back and waved from the rear window again, but I had already turned around and started walking, so I didn't notice it. I noticed a message received after I got home. Oh my gosh.
友達をタクシーに乗せて別れたんだけど・・・前にもタクシーから手を振ったのにこちらが気付かなかったって言われたことがあったから、ちゃんと今回は手を振って見送ったんだけど・・・タクシーが走り出した後にまた振り返って後ろの窓から手を振ったら自分がすでに振り返って歩き出していて気付かなかったと。帰ってきたらメッセージが来てた。不覚。
From my twenties to around my mid-thirties, I have honestly been working so hard constantly or I hesitated spending time playing ever since becoming a working adult. But well, I am where I am now because of that, so I also think that it wasn't wrong. Well, I'm telling myself that. And now, two more weeks would pass and I will graduate from my thirties.
20代の頃から30代半ばくらいまでかな、社会人になってからは正直遊ぶ時間を惜しんでずーっと仕事してきた。でもまあそのおかげで今があるんだから、それはそれで間違っていなかったんだとも思っている。というか自分にそう言い聞かせている。そして気が付いたらもう二週間もすると30代卒業。
I was able to get a lot of things about work from my 20s to my 30s, so recently I've started to feel like it's okay to make time to have a little fun and go out and play. I've become more accepting of spending time outside playing. I was able to get a lot of things about work from my 20s to my 30s by doing like that, so recently I've started to feel like it's okay to make time to have a little fun and go out and play. I've become to allow myself to make time to spend playing outside. The fact that I have been able to shoot in Kabukicho nearly 150 times is also thanks to the fact that I have allowed myself to indulge a little and spoil myself a bit. Rather, I can't escape from various stresses unless I go out to play. So I'm gonna play more and more!
See you then.
そんな感じで20代から30代まである程度仕事貯金はしてくることができたから、最近はちょっとは遊ぶ時間を作ってもいいかなって、外に出て遊ぶことに時間を使うことを自分で許せるようになった。歌舞伎町での撮影ももうすぐ150回になるわけだけど、そういうことをできるようになったのも、やっとちょっとは遊んでもいいかなって多少は自分を甘やかせるようになったおかげでもある。というか遊びに出ないといろんなストレスから逃げられない。だからどんどん遊ぶぞー。
ほなまたー。
